Living here in AZ, the weather during the monsoon season can be unpredictable. Today, it went from a somewhat overcast day to a full on thunderstorm in the span of about 15 minutes, seriously!
Please excuse the grainy look, but this was some of the lightning that I caught on video and did an image snapshot of it. Once I go through the rest of the film, will post more pics.
Sarah, I received your comment.
Yes, I did go through quite a bit, well in truth, we both did. Speaking only for myself, I did seek counseling after the death of my son and it was the best thing that I could have done for myself. Unfortunately what didn’t help was that I picked and chose what information I wanted to divulge to the counselor, so despite helping me with one emotional issue, there were a lot of the ‘in betweens’ that didn’t get addressed because I wasn’t ready to deal with them. Yes, that is something that I wish I had not done, because at the end of the day, everything tied in together.
My suggestion would be that you find the strength to talk about everything, regardless of how trivial you believe it to be. If you find it hard to talk about, put your thoughts in a journal and take it with you to your next session, give the counselor a fair chance to help you, give yourself the opportunity to work through what is holding you back so that you can move forward.
Losing a child is not easy, the pain doesn’t just go away because the thought is inconvenient for someone else, don’t let him do that to you.
I can’t recommend what you should do with your relationship, that is only something that you can answer for yourself. What I will suggest is that you both have a one on one, sit down, heart to heart talk. Don’t allow the anger, pain and heartache to control how you treat each other. I know, easier said than done since I walked out that door, and perhaps I have no right to speak any further on this matter, but I don’t want you to be going through what I am many years down the road, you have a chance to deal with it now, talk to him.